Friday, May 27, 2011

I've Learned That...

the best classroom in the world is at the foot of oneself.

just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day.

having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

being kind is more important than being right.

you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.

no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

simple walks with my father and mother around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

life is like a roll of toilet paper;  the closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

money doesn't buy class.

it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

love, not time, heals all wounds.

the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a  smile.

no one is perfect. 

life is tough, but I'm tougher.

opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your  looks.

the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

everything happens for a reason.

you cannot make someone love you; all you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.

you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. 

it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

you can keep going long after you think you can't.

regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

learning to forgive takes practice.

sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.

I can stand up for myself, even if it means standing alone.

your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I can dream big dreams even though I may never achieve them all.

all I have do is BELIEVE.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

A Send Off From 2nd Grade

My last day of student teaching was on Wednesday, May 11th.  I was given 26 handmade cards from each of my students along with 2 books, one of which was signed by all of them and the other signed by my cooperating teacher.  Below is what the cards stated, 2nd grade spelling, grammar, punctuation, etc. (using boy and girl in place of names for privacy).  I would love to share the illustrations that are on each card, but that would require me to upload more than 52 pictures.  I hope you enjoy reading what was written to me though.

Front of card:  good luck having your own class    
Inside of card: Dear Mrs. Niehoff,
Good luck having your own class and thank you for helping me sometimes.    Thank you for helping me.  Sincerely, (boy)
Back of card:  thank you for helping me

Front of card:  Good Luck   
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
I just like to say congratulations.  I hope you get a good job teaching. 
(boy)

Front of card:  Happy graduation     
Inside of card:  Have a good graduation
thank you for helping me. 
Your friend (boy)

Front of card:  to Ms Niehoff     
Inside of card:  Dear Ms Niehoff,
Congratulations
 I hope you have fun teaching
Sincereily
(boy)

Front of card:  Congratulations     
Inside of card:  Thank you for helping us.  Hope you have a nice graduation.
                          (boy)

Front of card:  Thang you  Ms. Niehoff     
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff
Thank you fer helping me with my fairy taliys.  And thang you for teaching us.
                        from (boy)    

Front of card:  Happy Graduation  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff, I hope you good luck.
                        Love, (girl)

Front of card:  Congratulation
                        Ms. Niehoff  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff
thank you for helping in the room and teaching and good luck teaching with different kids.
Love. (girl)
Back of card:  congratulations

Front of card:  happy Graduation  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. niehoff  
I hope it will be fun being a teacher and to do homework.
                        love (boy)
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Front of card:  Congratulations
                        Ms. Niehoff  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff
good Luck teaching  I hope you will teach me next year.  What grade will you teach?  What is you’re favorite color?  I hope I see you soon
                        love
                        (girl)

Front of card:  congratulations  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Neihoff,
congratulations!  You’re finally geting your own classroom!  Thank you for student teaching!
                        Have fun teaching!
                        Love,
                        (girl)   

Front of card:  Happy Graduatoin  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        I hope you have a nice graduatoin and I hope you can come visit our class.  Good Luck finding a jab.  I think you will be a good teacher.
                        Love,
                        (girl)

Front of card:  Made by: (girl)
                        I’ll miss you!    
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        Good Luck, Hope you have fun teaching.  Hope you have a great class.  I’ll miss you very much!  Love,
                        (girl)

Front of card:  Happy Graduation  
Inside of card:  Thank you for teaching me, and it was fun doing Games with you, Thank you and congradulations
                        From: (girl)
                        to: Ms. Niehoff

Front of card:  Thank you  
Inside of card:  Dear Miss Niehoff
                        Thank you for helping Edit my story.  Good luck being a good teacher.  I hope you teach 3rd grade at Woodland.
                        Sincerely
                        (boy)

Front of card:  Congratulations  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        I will miss you vary much.  You are the best teacher in the world.  I liked how you helped us in every thing.  I will miss you. P.S. I hope you have a good Graduation.  Drive safe.
                        Love,
                        (girl)

Front of card:  to Mrs Niehoff  
Inside of card:  Dear Mrs Niehoff,
                        Thank you for helping us Learn numders and writing.  Good Luck with your graduation.  Thank you.
                        Your friend
                        (boy)

Front of card:  Congrats!  
Inside of card: Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        I liked how you taught us.  Have a good graduation.  Thank you for teaching us.  I’m sure you’ll be a good teacher.
                        Sincerely,
                        (boy)
Back of card:  Welcome back Ms. Niehoff (with a picture of me at the Carlos State Park field trip that they are going on in June)

Front of card:  I hope you have a great graduatio Ms. Niehoff.  Have fun teaching your new class.  Thank you for helping us write fairy tales and for helping us on school work.
                        Love
                        (boy)  
Inside of card:   Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        Thank you for all you’ve done and teaching us in school.
                        Love,
                        (boy)

Front of card:  Happy Graduation  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        You are a very nice teacher!  I really hope you could stay!  Thanks for all your help!  You’re a good teacher!  I know you’ll still be a good teacher!

Front of card:  Happy graduation 
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        good luck when you get your own classroom.  Thank you for teaching us math games to play.  I hope you have fun teaching your own class room.
                        Love
                        (girl)

Front of card:  Good luck Mrs. Niehoff 
Inside of card:  Congratulations Mrs. Niehoff.  I hope you have a grait Graduation.
                        yore Studint
                        (girl)

Front of card:  Happy Graduation  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        I hope you have a great graduation.  And I hope you’re foot feels better too.
                        Love,
                        (girl)

Front of card:  Thank you  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff  thank you for helping our class  Thank you for  bringing fun stuff to our class
                        (boy)

Front of card:  Happy trails  
Inside of card:  Dear Mrs. Niehoff,
                        we will miss you so much.  you did so good at giving clear directions.  Make sure you come and visit.
                        your student
                        (girl)
Back of card:  From: (girl)

Front of card:  Good Luck  
Inside of card:  Dear Ms. Niehoff,
                        have a Good Graduation.  have a fun time Teaching
                        (boy)



Friday, May 13, 2011

Today is the Day

The moment has come and the realization is here.  Today is a special day and possesses a special time.  Today is the day that I will be walking across the stage and receiving my diploma for all that I have achieved and dreamed of.  Another chapter in my life will be coming to an end and a new chapter will begin.  All that I have experienced in my 4 years at MSUM have guided me to this point in my life.  I am ready to say good-bye to the days of taking tests, writing papers, and creating 5 page lesson plans and welcome the days of giving tests, correcting papers, and post-it note lesson plans.  I am ready to begin a new adventure in my life and have a classroom that I can call my own.  I am ready to fulfill a dream of mine and share with others what I believe.  But most importantly, I am ready to make a difference in the lives of my students.  It is today that I read my favorite book before traveling back to Moorhead with my family for my graduation and it is today that I share it with you.

Oh! The Places You’ll Go!
by Dr. Seuss
Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!
You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.
You’ll look up and down streets. Look’em over with care. About some you will say, “I don’t choose to go there.” With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you’re too smart to go down a not-so-good street.
And you may not find any you’ll want to go down. In that case, of course, you’ll head straight out of town. It’s opener there in the wide open air.
Out there things can happen and frequently do to people as brainy and footsy as you.
And when things start to happen, don’t worry. Don’t stew. Just go right along. You’ll start happening too.
Oh! The Places You’ll Go!
You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sights!
You’ll join the high fliers who soar to high heights.
You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed. You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you’ll be best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don’t.
Because, sometimes, you won’t.
I’m sorry to say so but, sadly, it’s true that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you.
You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You’ll be left in a Lurch.
You’ll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump. And the chances are, then, that you’ll be in a Slump.
And when you’re in a Slump, you’re not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.
You will come to a place where the streets are not marked. Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re darked. A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin! Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in? How much can you lose? How much can you win?
And if you go in, should you turn left or right…or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite? Or go around back and sneak in from behind? Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find, for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.
You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance. Everyone is just waiting.
No! That’s not for you!
Somehow you’ll escape all that waiting and staying. You’ll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner flip-flapping, once more you’ll ride high! Ready for anything under the sky. Ready because you’re that kind of a guy!
Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored. There are games to be won. And the magical things you can do with that ball will make you the winning-est winner of all. Fame! You’ll be famous as famous can be, with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.
Except when they don’t. Because, sometimes, they won’t.
I’m afraid that some times you’ll play lonely games too. Games you can’t win ‘cause you’ll play against you.
All Alone!
Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you’ll be quite a lot.
And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.
But on you will go though the weather be foul. On you will go though your enemies prowl. On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl. Onward up many a frightening creek, though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak. On and on you will hike. And I know you’ll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are.
You’ll get mixed up, of course, as you already know. You’ll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go. So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact and remember that Life’s a Great Balancing Act. Just never forget to be dexterous and deft. And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and ¾ percent guaranteed.)
Kid, you’ll move mountains!
So…be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ale Van Allen O’Shea, you’re off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So…get on your way!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

A Minor Setback

A week ago life decided that it wanted to through a small curve ball at me; an emergency appendectomy.  But I will start at the beginning and share with you the journey that I endured.  I am going to be 110% honest with my experience, so there may be more information than you may expect.  

It was the weekend and it had been quite the week at school, so I decided that I was going to sleep in.  Rather than getting up at my usual 6:00/6:30, I got up at 8:30 and laid in bed till about 9:00.  I’ll be honest…the first thing that I do in the morning when I get up is go to the bathroom, so I did just that. It was while I was in the bathroom that I experience the first of over 24 hours of pain.  This pain was no ordinary pain, it was a sharp, severe pain that radiated throughout my abdomen; a pain that doubled me over.  I went about what would be a typical Saturday for me…played with Makenna and then met my mom and sister to go to Alex to go shopping (for interview clothes).  However, it was not a typical day; I spent my day in pain.  There was always a dull, aching pain, but more often than not I was doubled over with the same pain that I first felt at 9:00 that morning.  It wasn’t till about 7:00pm that I looked at my mom and said that if it is not better in an hour, that I wanted her to bring me in; it was as soon as I told her that, that she knew I was in serious pain and took me in at that moment. 

After arriving to the ER, I was brought to “my room” where an entourage tests were run.  The first was a blood test to see what my white blood cell count was (it was 9.0…normal is anywhere from 4.0 to 10.0; because it was “normal” it did not lean towards an appendicitis) and the second was to run a urine sample for UTI and pregnancy (because I am a woman of child-bearing age, they legally have to run such a test).  We were able to joke about the pregnancy test and that I already knew what the results would be…negative (which of course it did come back as negative, along with the UTI coming back as negative).  When the doctor came in to tell me the results of the tests that they had just run, he told me that my issues may be gynecologically related and that I would be sent in for an ultrasound.  My heart sank and many unwanted thoughts started to go through my mind when I was told this.  So, it was off to the radiology to have my ultrasound.  The typical ultrasound was not showing what the tech was looking for, so I did have to have a vaginal ultrasound; the thoughts that I was already having did not get any better.  Now it was back to “my room” where I would share with my mom what had just happened.  After having waited for about an hour for the doctor to read it and to consult with another doctor, I was given my results.  Results at this point I did not want to hear, but were also welcomed.  I was told that I had an ovarian cyst that had ruptured.  I had all I could do to hold back the tears from everything that I was thinking: I’m almost 22, I’m too young!  Why me?  Why now?  Will this happen again?  Will I ever be able to become pregnant and be a mom?  I was too emotional to even ponder the thought of asking the doctor such questions; I was numb.  All I remember at this point, was the doctor telling me that he was going to send me home with some pain medication and that if I woke up in the morning and I was still in pain to come back in, his shift ended at 7:00am and that he wasn’t ruling out appendicitis due to his physical exam.  So, it was off to home I went after spending 4 hours in the ER. 

After arriving home, I took a pain med and went to bed.  I didn’t get much rest because I was still in pain and it was about 5:30 that I finally made my way upstairs to wake up my mom.  While telling my mom that I was in pain and needed to go back in, I became very dizzy and had told her that.  From that point, I don’t remember what happened; I fainted and had passed out in the doorway of the bedroom.  What I do remember was waking up to my mom kneeling by on the floor and my dad standing over me and immediately becoming very warm; mom says I was very cold and clammy.  After waiting for a several minutes, we made our way out to the vehicle and were on our way back in to the ER.  Dad stayed home and called the hospital to tell them that I was on my way and to be ready for me. 

Well, they were ready; I even got the same room.  I was barely in my bed when I had one nurse on one arm checking my vitals and another nurse on the other arm hooking me up to my IV.  Shortly after, my doctor was in to see me (the same one I had just six hours before) and lab was in to take more blood for another WBC test.  It wasn’t long before I got those results back (5.6) before I was headed back to radiology for a CT scan.  Many may wonder why a CT wasn’t done when I was in the night before…the reason, the doctor did not want to have my organs exposed to the radiation if it was not necessary.  After about an hour and half the CT results were reported to me; results that required a surgeon to come in to verify and make the final decision.  The CT scan did not come back 100% normal, but it did not come back saying that it was 100% clear that it was appendicitis.  After waiting for what seemed like forever the surgeon finally arrived at the hospital.  He looked at my scan and upon doing a physical exam, he determined that I had acute appendicitis.  I needed an emergency laparoscopic appendectomy.  I was already emotional from the news I had received the night before, but having no sleep and now having to undergo surgery topped the cake.  I am blessed that both my mom and dad were with me during this moment; I don’t know what I would have done had I been by myself. 

A phone call was made to my grandma (who was walking out the door to come to the ER for my aunt’s fiancĂ©…along with several other family members) and to my sister.  It wasn’t long before my family flooded the emergency room.  Due to the “only 1 visitor in the room” policy, there was a rotation of family members coming in and out of my room during my surgery prep:  my grandma, my aunt Brenda, my aunt Sara, my aunt Lori, my cousin Brody, my cousin Zach, and his girlfriend Jess.  (My sister, brother, and Makenna were not able to make it to the hospital before I was taken in for surgery.)  After many encouraging words, laughter, hugs, and kisses, I was taken in for surgery.  I won’t lie, as my family walked with me to the operating room, the emotions really started to run.  Not only was I scared to be put under yet again in just 3 months, but because of the love and support that I had at that moment being surrounded by the ones that I love.     

Wheeling into the recovery room to go through the final prep for surgery, I saw a familiar face.  The same guy that had given me a spinal tap and was with me while under anesthesia in January for my phlebectomy was the same guy that was going to be putting me under this time; it put me a lil at ease.  Now, it was truly surgery time.  The last thing I remember was positioning myself onto the surgical table and being told that I was going to be “out” soon; well I was.  The surgery only took about 20 minutes, but when waking up from anesthesia it seems like it was hours.  I was being asked how much pain I was in on the 10 point scale and having my vitals checked, all while trying to breath normally with an oxygen mask that made my face itch worse than a mosquito bite and a throat that was beyond sore from having a breathing tube in during the surgery.  Ultimately, I spent more time in the recovery room than I did in surgery.

I was now in my hospital room where I was having my vitals checked yet again and being admitted into the hospital (in homes for a discharge early that evening).  I was soon greeted yet again with all of my family who had stayed together while I was in surgery, but this time I had 3 more visitors (my brother, sister, and Makenna) and they could all be in the room.  It wasn’t long though before they all left…for lunch.  I was given time to rest, which was much needed, but wasn’t truly granted; every half hour my vitals needed to be checked.  After a couple hours my family returned and a few extra visitors came; my uncle Greg, aunt Sandy, and cousin Meridith and shortly after my cousins Mitchell and Kyle (which surprised the hell out of me seeing Mitchell walk in).  Like I said, I am truly blessed with the love and support that my family gives to each other and I am lucky to have had each one of them with me on that day.  

After everyone left, my mom and I had some alone time.  It was during this time that I made the choice to stay in the hospital overnight.  I was given the choice to go home, but I was too weak for comfort to do so and given what I had underwent in the past 24 hours, it was in my best interest.  It is a choice that was hard to make for the fact that I did not want to spend the night by myself in a hospital, but it is a choice that I am glad I made. 

Now it was on to having my vitals checked every hour, but I was now given time to myself.  It was great to be able to have this time to “rest”, but I couldn’t ever get to that point; I was still emotional from everything that had happened in the past 24 hours.  I was blessed during this time to have had a friend keep me company and to listen to me via text; I don’t know if I would have made it through those hours of being alone had I not been able to talk to him and I have personally thank him.  Shortly before “bed” that night I was graced with a phone call from a friend of mine, who was currently in Arizona for work.  I had all I could do to hold back the tears when I seen his name come up on my phone; it had been awhile since I had last seen or talked to him, but during a time when I needed the support, he was there for me (thank you Pawel).  And not long after getting off the phone with him, in walked my uncle Ron, aunt Dianne, and my cousin Gretchen; it was great to see them and to talk with them before the night ended. 

Vitals are now every 4 hours (thank goodness) and so were my pain medications (with one of them being every 6 hours); however, do you think that the vitals and paid medications would fall on the same hour…nope.  It was about every two hours that I had someone coming into my room for either vitals or to ease my pain.  Throughout the night I endured a lot of pain and also had a difficult time keeping my temperature down, making me grateful about my decision to stay.

It was a night of very little rest with all of the commotion going on.  Morning “slowly” came and I was greeted by the doctor who would take over my case at 6:30am.  I was happy to know that it was Dr. Paulson that I would now be seeing, but I don’t remember much of him being in the room.  The one thing I do remember was the physical exam…ouch!

It was soon to be discharge time…yippy!  I was greeted by lil patters of feet in the hallway followed by “Is Ammer all bedder?”  My sister and Makenna had arrived and were ready to bring me home.  I only wish that I would have immediately felt better when this time I was told “Ammer, you fweel all bedder?” when they entered the room.  It wasn’t long after they arrived that I was discharged and ready to go home (11:40am). 

I am still on the mend, but am doing great!  I am ready to be back at school tomorrow after being showered with cards from my students and the flowers that were sent to me from them.    

Throughout this entire experience I was showered with love and support from my family and friends and I will forever be grateful for them and am blessed to have each one of them in my life. 
“I don’t care how poor a man is; if he has family he’s rich.”  -Dan Wilcox